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Be Yourself Or Die

So, I’m pretty much tired of not being myself. I talk to my wife about it because she has a more advanced case of it than I do. But the truth is, I hide who I am in order to fit in too. The truth is, when you aren’t being yourself, you might as well already be dead. The Bene Gesserits said long before me.

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.

I’m a geek, I’m vegan, I fucking love Amanda Palmer and the ukulele, I feel sorry for people who “don’t like to read”, I’m a writer and a dreamer. I love long rambling text posts that nobody will probably ever read.

 

GOOOOOOOOAAAAALLLLL (NaNoWriMo)

Like many thousands of other people I participated in NaNoWriMo this year with the lofty goal of writing 50,000 words of a novel during the month of November. I’m proud to say that I am a winner this year having hit 50,000 words on November 27th. This is my first NaNo win and my third attempt. I guess the third time is actually the charm sometimes. I guess it’s a cliche for a reason :)

I’m still haven’t quite come to terms with the fact that I’ve written something this long. Last year’s attempt never made it to the 45k mark and I did work on it some throughout the year. I think this year worked much better for me for a few reasons.

1) I had a good idea where I wanted the story to end up before I started writing. It kept my driving forward in a way that writing by the seat of my pants never could.

2) I made very good use of the local NaNo community in Tucson. I went to multiple write-ins every week. I posted on the forums, and in the Tucson NaNo Facebook group, despite my hatred for FB.

3) I used the attendance of write-ins as an incentive. I would not go to a write-in unless I made at least 75% of my writing goal for the day. It meant that write-ins were just fun social time for me and helped me meet and get to know some great people.

4) I refused to let myself settle for less words than my goal. I took two days off from NaNo, but they were on purpose. I also made sure that I was ahead of the goal count to so that I wasn’t getting behind by not writing.

So, those are the ways I managed to bang out more words on one story in a month than I’ve ever written before. Now the question is, can I keep it going? I’ve set a goal for myself to write 1300 words per day which rounds out to about 40,000 words a month depending on its length. That should hopefully allow me to finish up this novel (50k isn’t nearly the end) and move on to something else with the beginning of the new year.

What this all means is that I’m now officially putting on my big boy writer pants and going after my dreams of being a published author. I think 30 sounds like a good age to get a contract signed, don’t you?

Marriage on Opposite Sides of the Technological Divide

I just read a post on Google+ about senior citizens not wanting more new gadgets. It was all about getting a cell phone and getting signed up for Twitter and stuff. It was mildly amusing and grumpy, but not really important enough to explain further. What amused me is the way this curmudgeonly attitude toward technology made me reflect on its role in my life.
This is the comment I posted in response:
“If I ever start talking like this I want somebody to grab the largest tech object still in existence and bash me in the head until I stop twitching. You’ll take my gadgets away from me when you pry them out of my cold dead hands!

My wife on the other hand is a very reluctant tech adopter. She is just now very slowly learning to admit that the MP3 player is superior to the personal CD player. She absolutely hates learning new gadgets. I find the thrill of learning a new gadget to be as addictive as any drug.

I restrain myself from bugging her to upgrade her outdated tech and she tries not to snicker when my bleeding edge device malfunctions and makes me scream. We both still think that our own way is a bit better, but in the end realize that there are benefits to each way of thinking. And…I just realized that this unwittingly became an explanation for how to make a marriage work. Heh.”

Our differing viewpoints on tech and gadgets fascinates me. There are endless options in the world of technology and to some extent they define our personalities. I’d love to hear from you folks about how you and your partners differ. Does it cause strife or bring you closer together? If you’re single does someone’s opinion on technology factor into your decision to pursue a relationship?

Happy Birthday #Amwriting!

For the uninitiated, #amwriting is a Twitter hashtag, created by the lovely Johanna Harness. It’s a continuously running Twitter chat that is an endless font of inspiration for writers. I think I found #amwriting just after it was created. If it weren’t for Johanna and all the other early adopters I never would have participated in NaNoWriMo that year.

That NaNoWriMo was the starting point for my return to the world of writing. I hadn’t written anything to speak of since about the 6th grade, though I had done some pretty extensive roleplaying and character building. The camaraderie and encouragement I found on Twitter that November was nothing short of life changing.

As anyone can tell you that’s faced down NaNoWriMo it’s quite a daunting task. Many times I was reminded of a great Stephen King quote.

“Sometimes you have to go on when you don’t feel like it, and sometimes you’re doing good work when it feels like all you’re managing is to shovel shit from a sitting position.”

I don’t think I could have found the courage to keep going if it weren’t for #amwriting and my wife, who constantly reminded me that writing is what I want to do with my life. It was a simple matter of prioritization and writing needed to come first. Once I put writing on the top of my list I began to arrange the rest of my life. Now, instead of working a 9-5 job and scratching out a bit of writing when life allows I’m traveling full time with my wife and working on my writing for hours every day.

I won’t go as far as to say that I wouldn’t be here without #amwriting, but I will say that it was one of the first steps on a very long journey. I don’t know if I’ve every properly thanked the people of #amwriting, Johanna in particular, properly, but I hope this post will serve. Thank you.

This post is part of a blog party to celebrate #amwriting’s second birthday. Happy birthday!

To continue the celebration, head over to L.S. Taylor’s blog and read her happy birthday post.

Playlist for My Novel

Yesterday I wrote a post about how I respond to that dreaded question about my inspiration for my current novel. It was a bit facetious, but I do find a lot of inspiration in songs.

Of course there’s a lot more to it than that. Writing a novel is a complex process and it takes a lot more than a little seed from a song to get those creative juices flowing. It takes a whole bunch of songs! ;) To that end I give you a few of the songs that keep me in the mode for writing my little necromancy tale. I put this playlist together on Spotify (free accounts available by signing up with Klout.com) based on things that were on the Pandora station I often listen to while writing this novel. It’s a work in progress, but I’m sure you can see a theme. If you have any ideas for things that would fit in there, I’d appreciate the suggestions.

The links below take you to the songs on Spotify. If you sign up with that link above you can play all of these songs and about 10 million others for free! (I’m not even getting paid for this. I just love the service so far.)

Death Cab for Cutie – I Will Follow You into the Dark
The Cranberries – Zombie
Tegan And Sara – Walking With A Ghost
Dave Matthews – Gravedigger – Acoustic
John Lennon – Imagine
Glee Cast – Blackbird (Glee Cast Version)
Jack Johnson – Breakdown
Donavon Frankenreiter – Free
Metric – Help I’m Alive
Michael Andrews – Mad World
Evanescence – My Immortal – Band Version
Death Cab for Cutie – Someday You Will Be Loved
Death Cab for Cutie – Soul Meets Body
The Postal Service – Such Great Heights
Tegan And Sara – Where Does The Good Go
Nine Inch Nails – Hurt (Quiet)
David Bowie – Space Oddity
Phantom Planet – Raise The Dead
Phantom Planet – Demon Daughters